Friends since middle school. You would think that means something but no it doesn’t. Not to Jessica or to her never ending liege or minions. Sophie, Casey, Lucy, Matilda I don’t even know all their names at this point.

When we just started this school we were inseparable everyone of our classes together seemed like a blessing and all our teachers knew us as Nancy and Jessica not just Nancy or not just Jessica. We were like conjoined twins. My mum even saw her as another daughter and would constantly hounder me about when Jessica is coming over. Or what’s Jessica’s favourite horror movie. I wasnt even allowed to watch horror movies! And that’s when it started going bad.

She was taking over my life. Everyday I lost a bit of me. Until I was just a slightly worse clone of jessica. Forced to wear the same clothes but Jessica’s a little less creased. Forced to have the same hair after she cut her hair but styled it a little bit better. And worst of all forced to share the spotlight when I got a good score on a test and she would somehow always score better. And I never complained. Not once. Jessica made new friends. What seemed like hundreds of them actually.

She also lost what made her unique she started wearing contacts to hide her true eye colour and would stop binge watching stranger things to the point of insanity. Stop reading books at break time with 100 percent concentration and mumble stuff only I would understand. There was none of that anymore. There was now no Jessica only Jess. At least that’s what her bedazzled name tag says..

A few months passed and I was finally getting over the fact we weren’t best friends anymore until the bullying started. It was slow at first like a whisper in the winds with just a few chuckles as I walked down the corridor. But then it got unbearable I could hear her talking bad about me from across the hall using words like slut and bitch to apparently perfectly describe me! She’s the slut! She’s the bitch! Not me.

We used to be so close and now look at you calling me spineless behind my back. Which I guess is true since I will never complain. I will never retaliate against her in the hope that one day I could repair our relationship into a healthy one. And that is probably bullshit but a girls gotta hope!