It was a beautiful afternoon

The sun was bright and warm

The river drifted lazily

On it floated pieces of my heart

Torn out and then sent on their way

Paper boats filled with more dreams than you could count

My breath caught as I smelled a hint of lemon

Too familiar to mistake

I pulled the old acoustic guitar against my body

It held me grounded for a moment

And then my fingers stretched to play the simple song of hopelessness

After everything had been torn away

I strummed G, C, D

And sang the song that beat with my heart

_“I don’t know where I am_

_Lord help me if you can_

_You say you’ve always been_

_But how can I know?_

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_When you’ve taken all I love_

_My friends my family and trust_

_And left me less than dust_

_So how can I know?_

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_If you’re real or if you’re not _

_If you’re just a wishful thought_

_But then again how can I not_

_Believe in you?_

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_My very breath speaks your name _

_And it’s always been the same_

_Could there be a reason you take_

_YHWH?”_

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Tears flowed from my eyes as I strummed the final chords

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G, C, D.__

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