i wish we could go back to the first time we met

it was so long ago i can’t remember,

but i bet our knees were scabbed from sidewalks painted with pastel dreams that were born in our minds

and our eyes were still bright- untouched by the world we had yet to find

when we met for the first time, i think we said hello-

all shy smiles with crooked teeth and hair that was wind blown

you told me your name, and i told you mine-

and the eyes that would spend the rest of forever seeking each other met for the first time

we had an abundance of firsts, an infinite amount that would be impossible to count

our first pillow fort that took us hours to build and then collapsed after one mistake

i was too young to realize,

one move is all it takes.

i fell in love with you for the first time when i was 10

when i was old enough to see that we weren’t

(and we never had been)

just best friends

i have loved you since the day we met, i think, in more ways than there are stars

and us loving each other took forever to start

but the end is inevitable like an earthquake

coming to break my glass heart