i want to say what u did

i want people to know what u did

i need to get it out of my head

yet i seem to go speechless the second ur name is mentioned

no longer able to get my thoughts out 

my mind goes 1000 mph re playing everything u have done and said 

yet i can never get those thoughts out of my head 

its like u implanted these memories of horror into my brain 

making me unable to speak my truth

the truth of what u really did

who u really are

this needs to be said

but i go speechless when ur name is called