(Warning: this thing is kinda weird and just a thingy I’ve been stressing over.)

I lay down my head, tuck myself beneath my snuggly warm comforter, and close my eyes. My body is clean and lotioned with lush Japanese cherry blossom; making me smell like, or what one would say, a grandmother. My thick hair tucked into a bonnet. Now all that’s left is for me to sleep.

***

**Whatcha doing, baby?**

**Tryin’ to go to sleep?**

**Aww,**

**It’s funny that you think you can. What the hell? First off, you are me Why would you call me baby? Second off, shut up before I take some pills. _That’s a lie_ _You’re afraid of pills, and holes_ _And shots_ _And if your crush is asexual_ You too! I _have_ to go to sleep Right now! I have a unit test tomorrow. But…**

**You could stay up all night**

**Thinking of Rayburn and Oswald**

**And their next sweet scene Tempting, But no. _Yes, you would rather_ _Stare at the ceiling_ _And think of “Honey Bear”_ _If she kissed y—_ ALRIGHT! ALRIGHT! Shut it! Fuck OFF! Wow!**

**Feisty aren’t you? Stop talking, Your making me uncomfortable Why is your voice that low? _Because you hate deep_ _DEEP voices…._ _But also high pitched ones._ _Why can’t you choose?_ And why can’t you let me go to sleep? *

I feel a pair of hands tugging the comforter off of my head and tucking it to my chest.

“Goodnight, Hollow,” my mother kisses me on my head. She walks back out of my dark room, turning on the fan.

My wonderful Mummy.

“Night,” I mumble. I squeeze my eyes tighter and try to blank my mind. But what pops up is not sleep, it’s—

***

**Oh!**

**So you are horny!**

**I was close enough Oh my dear lord. _Now, _ _What would Honey Bear say_ _If she saw what you were thinking?_ Shut UP! You say that an awful lot. Oh my god OH MY GOD _Oh look_ _It’s getting worse_ _Oh—OH_ Wait, wait!**

**Let me see**

**…Hollow!**

**Haha! And you told your mum that you’re straight I am now! She doesn’t like me back She _can’t_ like me back! _She never said that she_ Was _Asexual, just that she_ Thought_ she was_ Same difference I say you kiss her hand!**

**That’s what you wanted to**

**Do before anyway**

**Oh, and hug her too, and— I get it, I get it But she’d probably just give me her confused smile and try not to disappoint me I don’t want that _But you haven’t tried_ I can’t My step-father’s job is too important My mother’s job is too important And my stupid feelings will just get in the way Ah. _Oh._ Why are you so surprised?! You’re me You already know this! I dunno **

**You make us do this _Mh-hmm _ Will you let me go to sleep Now? Sure**

Thank you.