April 23rd

It’s been a while since I written in this journal, but I need something to pass the time. Varys left today and I have no idea when he’ll be back home. He said this job would be dangerous and I can’t help but feel a pit in my stomach at the thought something might happen to him.

I know my brother is strong, and he’s fine through worse, but I still worry. He’s my family.

- Dahlia

April 24th

It’s rather boring without Varys here. This isn’t the first time he’s been away for work, but I know this time around he’s going to be far from home, so who knows when he’ll be back home again.

I practically cleaned the entire house and now I’m left with nothing to do. I even went and watered all the flowers at my garden but there’s only so much I could do there.

Maybe I’ll take up painting. How laughable that would be considering I can’t even draw. But I suppose it’s never too late to learn.

- Dahlia

April 29th

I met someone today.

It was, odd, but also enticing. I’d never seen anyone at the garden. To be fair, I also never go when it’s dark out, but today I was drawn to it. I needed to see the flowers even if for just a moment. And there he was.

At first, I was sure I was seeing things. No one ever even bothered to take care of the flowers before I found it. But then he spoke, and that illusion shattered.

I wonder what he was there for?

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t find him alluring. It was so dark I couldn’t even see his full face, and yet, I was so drawn to him I couldn’t look away.

A shadow.

I didn’t even get his name.

- Dahlia

May 2nd

It’s been three days since I’ve met that stranger and every day I’m tempted to wait until the night hoping he comes back. Part of me is scared to because what if he actually does? What would I even say to him?

- Dahlia

Ok. So I went back tonight. I wasn’t going to but I did. And he was there again. I couldn’t help but rejoice in the fact I had seen him again.

I did manage to get his name.

Emrys.

God what I wouldn’t give to hear his voice again.

May 3rd

Varys still hasn’t come back home, and I miss him. It’s lonely. Kind of sad that I don’t have any friends besides my brother. Well, that’s not entirely true. There’s Luca, but he’s a special case I never know when I can see him.

Being friends with a faerie is interesting. No one even knows he exists. And the last time I tried telling Varys about Luca, he looked to me as if I were crazy. So, I never brought him up again.

I wonder…

What if Luca brought me to his world? Even for just a day? I’d love to see the world he lives in.

- Dahlia

May 4th

I went back to the garden tonight, but Emrys wasn’t there. I suppose it was wishful thinking. I guess I had just assumed he’d be here every night. That was silly of me. I don’t even know the man. Now I’m sitting here, feeling like an idiot.

I’ve only cross paths with him twice and for some reason, I just want to see him again.

What a stupid girl you are...

- Dahlia

May 6th

Luca came back again, but he was in distress. His friend had been severely injured and he asked for my help. I wasn’t sure how I even could help, but I wouldn’t turn them away.

His friend, he called her Val, she’s also fae and she’s sleeping on the couch right now. I offered my bed to her but she was in too much pain she didn’t want to move.

I don’t blame her…

Luca just finished telling me that she lost one of her wings, and I haven’t been able to stop crying for her since.

I wish there was more I could do to help.

- Dahlia

May 8th

I think it’s safe to say Val isn’t a fan of me. Or we’ll, humans in general. I’ve done what I can to help but she refuses it unless it’s from Luca. She also constantly curses at me and tells me to stay away.

It hurt, but I won’t let her know that. Considering what she had gone through, I don’t blame her. Not to mention, Luca told me that faeries don’t trust humans. Humans have always treated them horribly, so in her eyes I’m not different than a monster.

I won’t give up though. Luca is my friend, and therefore that makes Val my friend too. Even if she hates me.

- Dahlia

May 13th

I think Val likes me but she’s too embarrassed to admit it. It’s kind of adorable. She’s definitely stubborn. But when Luca told her I would be leaving to get some supplies for them, Val grabbed my arm and demanded I stay with her and he leave instead. Luca was taken a back by that. He even looked to be jealous that she was clinging to me and not him.

I think it’s probably because she’s never had a girl friend like that. She has only ever spoken about having Luca as her friend. And well, I understand that fully. He’s always been the only friend I had, too.

The only difference is, she has always had him by her side, while his precense in my life was always fleeting.

- Dahlia

May 16th

I saw him again..

Emrys.

But I didn’t speak to him.

I wondered if I’d ever see him again. I went back to the garden while Luca and Val slept and there he was. He sat in the middle of the lilies, holding one up and twirling it between his fingertips. Tonight he looked…distant, sad. And I don’t why it broke a piece inside me to see him that way.

But I just stood there and watched him a while. I almost felt like a stalker, waiting to see what he would do.

He didn’t move from his spot for a while, and just when I thought I’d have the courage to call out to him, he started to sing.

It was the most beautiful thing I had ever heard, but it was also heartbreaking to witness. All I wanted to do was wrap my arms around him, but I knew I couldn’t.

So, I ran away…

- Dahlia