Am i selfish for holding a grudge?

Or am i keeping my peace?

What if my peace needs a little nudge.

Is my anger on a lease?

Are the feelings i hold temporary?

Is it better to give in?

Should i blind myself to the past and let go of this anger that i carry?

Even though that would be letting you win.

The hatred i have for you goes deeper than a grudge.

Yes it’s selfish to be so angry but it’s self respect for standing my ground.

This seems petty because I don’t budge.

What you don’t see is my anger goes deeper then sound.

The anger I express is never the anger I withhold.

So I choose to stay mad because you will never understand the feelings you put on to me.

Keeping my anger keeps my peace so no, I won’t fold.

The grudge that seems petty, is filled with a rollercostet of emotion that you will never see.

So am i selfish for the holding a grudge that you perceive differently?