Are you here, or just a vision of a future we’ll never see, is there something in your being that is here, or just an echo of all possibilities, all people crying freely?

Are you here, are you still here, or I closed my eyes and lost that frequency of the life I had in me, you gave me all, to hold, gave me the last thing that you needed, you believed someday after closing your eyes you won’t see again…

Did you whispered slowly in my ear, you cried my name then ran back free, or is it only that emptiness in me, pushing slowly to ecstasy?

Why was I searching for one thing, one thing telling me that I am here, forgetting to cry is my only fear…

I searched for you there at the movies, long gone and my breath was freezing, searched for you in every movie, friend from childhood give me your being, I have never been more empty without the one I couldn’t care less about…

Give me something real to feel, it’s not enough that you’re not here, sweetest smell around cold stones, reminds me of all our old songs, did you ever sing along the rhythm they made us learn, was I a lonely child all times I was listening with pride?

Where are you, old memory, I might lose you for life’s sympathy, you’ll be replaced old memory, ghost of the past I draw for me, revive me if there’s no tomorrow, memories painted in sorrow, what have I touched against the stone when turning away from our little world?

I will not forget about today, not even when I’ll see the rain, you’re my only laugh in pain, my friend for better and worse, take me home, back to that one child playing at home.

Happy birthday, friend for better and worse.