Parties, dinners, and all other social gatherings I enjoy, but with a cost. The enjoyment of socializing pulls me towards these things, but the energy cost of this activity pushes me away and leaves my mind inert. Like spicy food, its fun to eat, but what comes later fills you with regret.

Everyone, other than my closest friends, see me as distant viewer. I’m attracted to the liveliness of people, but afraid of the cost of interacting with them. But I’m comfortable being this way, I’m not gonna force myself to change just to fit in. The judgment doesn’t scare me.