I remember it was a few days just before Christmas when my sister-in-law was to pick my albino cat Dax and I up just in time for the holidays. It was the most joy I have felt in a long time. You see my life isn’t easy. I live in these air conditioned shacks with a roommate, who is an absolute blessing by the way. It’s not so much of having a roommate that’s an issue, I just miss home. I miss having a kitchen decorated in sunflowers, I miss my fuzzy sectional retro couch so much. All these comforts you see are something I have taken for granted. I’ve accepted my reality for what it is and am now taking steps to get back on my feet. But now back to Christmas, my nephew Samson. My word, he is so handsome and smart. At just 12 years old he’s dead set in becoming a history teacher. But it was so good to see them for Christmas. The breakfast and fighting over the last homemade cinnamon roll, the looks of delight and joy from each gift they recieve. And Samson, who has practiced great patience in this, finally got the Harry Potter lego set that his dad will be stepping over later on...perks of being a aunty😉😅. And then my handsome boy Dax got his first Santa’s outfit, and of course the infamous kitty nip 🤣🤣. All was well and we said our farewells and I go home that night. Only to wake up not even a week later and it’s been burnt to the ground. Dax is going nuts in this hotel room, my funds are running out, I keep asking God why? I start the new year off with nothing. Then it hit me, I need to pray and ask God how can I...? So I did it, whenever and wherever. And from there I stopped in the streets. Time got cut real close there. It doesn’t help this economy is crap on top of poor healthcare so yeah...it’s been hell thus far. But I found found myself going from grudgingly prayerful to joyfully prayerful. All the while working on me internally I’m trying to externally. All of a sudden my prayers were from god please provide to God give me wisdom and discernment. Landed that job, took me 4 months but I did. Baby steps work! Lucky enough the owner of the hotel agreed to discounted rate on top of working for him too. It didn’t bother me because of baby steps. Finally with being able to save up I got a really nice cabin. I’m allowed to refurbished but I won’t be compensated, so yeah slowly I’m redoing this cabin. I had faith. I knew it was gonna get better. God, or whatever god or gods you worship, is like your ultimate helper, nor is a slave. They give you strength, they remind and encourage you, but you gotta work to. Pretty soon those things you’ve been dreading or grudgingly doing will turn to moments of anticipation til you do it willingly. This ain’t no 50 50 either with God. It’s all or nothing. So let this be a lesson, no matter what or where you are in life, it can be gone in a blink of an eye, and no one is spared. Be humble and loving. Kind and caring. Patient and encouraging. Above all love. And Never give up. Always Keep Fighting