Your voice still dances through my mind,

In memories still living in my head.

They’ve tried to tell me many times,

But your cancer left us both for dead.

I never quite got over you,

Never knew how,

Nor wanted to.

I pray each day that it’s not true.

I’m tortured every singe night,

When I would call you,

You’d listen to me cry.

Loved me enough to cry sometimes too.

You never let me feel alone,

In a roomful of strangers,

Or completely on my own,

I could only be brave cause you kept me from danger.

I’d never have been ready for you to go,

The years have never dulled the pain,

I still need you more than anyone can know,

But your words echo all through my brain.

I cannot forget what it was like being loved,

Without any judgment or conditions.

You made me feel as though I was enough,

Like that maybe it was okay to be different.

I’m not safe in this world without you anymore,

I’m not safe from myself,

I might fall off the floor.

Pull that gun off the shelf,

Pull the trigger,

And soar.