Its the first day going to college and im already quite tired All of this new social stuff, surrounded by friends i never felt- liked- Me for who i was, but hey i never tried- to- Figure out if i was ever treating anyone right

Escaping my own home to a place which treats me the same Just numbers on the papers that im failing like my grades I feel things come quite easily but talent never did anything right

Two hours in a library and i feel the pressure rotting my mind To be the person im supposed to be Its quite the possibility That the more i talk, The more i breathe The more i walk The more i see The more i laugh The less i cry The jokes that i say All of the time The more i conform to their game That college makes me very tame

Its the first day going to college and im already quite tired Combatting my insomnia, just wanna sleep at night Yet my mind is racing, reflecting all the same Creativity not memory is coursing through my veins

Its the first night after college and im sitting all alone Suffering with thoughts and prayers that i will never know I neglected all my friendships, the connections I left behind And now i write a final line before i embrace the night

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Inspired by a song with a similar name Might write more Depends on how time flows

Idc about the prompt, what are you gonna do? Shadowban me?