I’ve tried to keep this from happening as long as I could. I know she won’t forgive me, I know it. But it’s either her knowing and being away from me or her life.

With my heart in my hands, ready for her to crush it in a million pieces with her disappointment, I try to look for the appropriate words to tell someone you love that you’ve lied to them for the past two years.

-“Hailey i’m sorry”

-“Sorry for what? Not telling me the truth?”

-“what?”

-“Stefan I knew, Roy came and told me an hour ago”

There’s everything but understanding in her eyes, her face tells nothing and my body fills with rage. I know Roy would tell her, I just didn’t think she would believe him so easily. I thought she hated him–despised him. And suddenly she just opens the door and welcomes him while she hates me? I’ve sacrificed so much for her, I’d give anything for her, I just need her to understand.

-“I did it to protect you”

-“protect me from what exactly?”

From everything, from every single risk that comes along with being with me.

-“See, you don’t even know”

I feel like I’m being lit up in rage, of course I fucking know. I can name more than twenty guys that could put her pretty little name in their kill list if they ever saw her with me. I can’t jeopardize her safety, I just can’t. I’m on a loss of words when she continues.

-“Two years Stefan, two goddamn years for you to be honest and you just couldn’t”

tears fill her eyes. Fuck I didn’t mean to make her cry

-“don’t cry Hailey, please don’t” I try to get closer to her and embrace her, but she bats my hands away

-“What do you expect me to do, go and share to the world that my boyfriend’s a superhero?”

-“You wouldn’t tell anyone?”

-“Of course I wouldn’t! I know how this shit works, I just want honesty from you, that’s all I’ve ever asked for and you couldn’t give it to me because you don’t trust me”

-“Of course I trust you Ley! I just couldn’t stand the thought of coming home and finding you dead, I just want you safe, God woman I love you”

-“I know Stefan, I love you too, but we can’t be like this, not anymore”

-“No Ley please don’t, give another chance, we can’t end like this” I lean in and press my lips to hers, just when she looks like she’ll give in, she pulls away.

-“Stefan, we can’t, I’ll always love you, but I’ll hate you too, you need to leave”

-“Please Ley, please, let me fix this”

-“You can’t okay! You just fucking can’t, please Stefan just leave”

With tears pricking my eyes I stand up to leave, only to stop when I see Roy coming through the door.

-“Aw, Mommy and Daddy broke up, what a bummer”

-“You did this!” I say as fury takes over me and I slam him to the closet wall I could find.

-“I wouldn’t do that if I were you, one wrong move and dear little Ley won’t see a new day”

-“STEFAN, STEFAN PLEASE”

The last thing I hear is someone trying to shut her up. I grab Roy and toss him into the closest table I could find and lunge toward Ley, but it was too late, a neat, straight line had been imprinted in her neck, blood dripped from it.

-“I’m sorry Ley”

-“I’m sorry too”