I started forming myself

This kind of forming you see in movies

Those where you just glow up

Those where you become a different person from one day to the other

I know this wouldn’t be easy

I always knew this

I knew that it would be the hardest time of my life

I knew this wouldn’t be good for me

But still I proceeded

I tried changing myself to someone who I’m not

Changing myself to a better me while the current me was good enough

Changing myself knowing I wouldn’t succeed

I knew all this

And I still felt like a failure

Because I didn’t get what I wanted

Because I failed becoming me while I was me the whole time