What does it mean for one to be of no return?

She sips the soup at a rhythmic pace

Her lips an alluring red

Ever so distant

Ever so close

At recess I am pulled for another evaluation'

But I can't help but think of her

Ever so perfect

Ever so tragically broken

By time we get back to our rooms

I devise my own little plan

Ever so romantic

Ever so obscenely grotesque

I steal the key from the guard working the night shift

Entering her room on the second floor

Ever so loud

Ever so silent

She greets me with hello

I greet her with fury

Ever so depressing

Ever so longingly ecstatic

Handcuffs soon are the next to greet me

The cop shoves my face to the floor

Ever so peaceful

Ever so excruciatingly painful

Where is my humanity I ask

What separates a bad person from a person who is just doing bad

Ever so many questions

Ever so little answers