When I came home from school at 7 years old,

I found my Mom unconscious, on the floor .

Mom wake up, Wake up! I kept on replying. Tears running down my freckled face.

It was too late, she was gone. I had no grandparents or relatives to live with. I was put in Forster care.

That’s when my heart went dead. I lost everything I ever loved. I’m only7 years old. I’m lost in my thoughts and in my heart. My heart is screaming Help me! I became withdrawn, helpless. No home to go back to. No Mommy.

I was placed in several Forster homes until I reached the age of maturity. Some families I lived with ,were nice. Some families ,were mean and abusive.This made it impossible to express my feelings and emotions. All my love was boxed in my heart, with no key to unlock.

Being tossed around from family to family, made me grow up insercure and _unloved_ .

That’s why I’m having trouble expressing my true feelings and love for you. Honestly, I don’t know how! I forgot how!Since, I met you, my life slowly started changing for the better. I realized I am capable of emotion and love.

We hit it off right away, I knew you were the one for me. I try to show my love in different ways.

I fixed your sink, I painted your walls, you know I’m very handy. In my own way, that’s showing you how I feel. Don’t laugh, but I know you understand me.

I’m crazy about you, I hope you feel the same.

What you say and what you do, leaves me in a better place of mind.

Love the way you look at me, the way you hold my hand.

What you say, what you do,always leaves me,in a better place. Because of you, I’m becoming a better person . A better man. I’m opening up my heart again for the first time .

So my dear, please be patient . You are my first love. I want to spend all of our days together.Fovever!

I might not be very verbal by telling you in words.

I show it in different ways. I send you cards.

The cards are my way of expressing my love to you, verbally.

But I promise I will change.

I’m learning to open up again. Because of you.

I never loved anyone but my mom. . I know now my mom would have loved you. She would see How happy I am now!

In this crowed restaurant,Im on bended knee, I want to propose.

In this box, are all the words I cannot express right now!

It’s a ring of love,

an engagement ring.

saying it for the first time since I was 7. I love you. I love you. I love you. Will you marry me?

So think about it for a day. You know how I feel.

I’ll be by the phone,waiting for your sincere answer

REMEMBER

I will love you,till the end of time❤️