Water drowns out the sound of my fear.

My life beats through a newfound clarity.

As I walk, fear walks with me.

Quiet or loud.

It's prescence, always felt.

Never tracking the present.

But always the prescence of my thoughts.

Always. Good or bad.

A bad habit? Maybe.

A mask deciding to be seen? Scary.

But I break it. I break the mask.

Leaving nothing but

Shattered pieces of what was.

And what will be, now that the mask

Has no power over me.

Like a bowling ball, I stride down my own path

With concentration and assertiveness.

Bracing for impact, my comfort almost wrecked.

But now, nothing is there.

The path is clear.

No pins, no hesitation, no re-deciding.

Because now I decide,

Nothing will stop me from being free.

My crystal clear heaven,

Speaks to me,

And in my dreams I pray for sweet release.