Sunday

Wasting the day on my couch

Daughter and dog beside me

Doing much of nothing.

I should give myself grace.

I am deserving of rest.


Does productivity equal success?

Successful at what?

Successful at life?

Successful at mothering?

Am I failing?


It’s fine.

I’ll do what I want.

I always do.

My hair is a mess

I don’t have anything to wear.

I don’t want to wash my face

I don’t want to apply makeup.


I should go.

I should start a workout routine.

I should clean.

I should organize.

So many things; it paralyzes me.


Social media posts render me lazy and inept.

Deceiving, one dimensional.

Inaccurate representations of the truth.


Finally, a discovery worth the scroll

A post by an old childhood acquaintance

It read:

“ ….people see your trauma response to their bad behavior as your personality.”

A clever understanding of how we are perceived by others.

So simple yet so eye opening.

Thank you old acquaintance.


Here I go

I will live for today

Live in this moment

Be true to myself

Not reactive

Living today intentionally

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