I’ve noticed blood dripping from my fingertips on a daily basis. I can see it move through my body, towards my fingers, out from under my fingernails and onto the floor. There’s a pool of blood neext to my bed as it drips from my hand as I hang it off the bed. There’s no pain with this. But each time, and for the past week, I’ve noticed my blood slightly changing coolor. It’s now a darker hue of red. What color it will be I have no idea, but I grow concerned.

It all started four days ago. A few things happend that day. That was the last ttime I saw my wife, that was the last time I saw my daughter, and that was the last time I could sleep at night. She was standing over me in the middle of the night, probably around 0300 or 0400, poked me in the neck, laughed and just left without saying a word.

My alarm is ringing in my ears at the moment as it’s now 0600 on Friday, and quite possibly my last day of work. This week I’ve been caught sleeping in my office and fell asleep on a video conference call, and arived late for a sentencing hearing involving a client. My supervisor said he wanted to speak with me. I’ve prepared an excuse and reason for my sluggishness and general deamnor. I’ve worked ith himn for over 12 years now, and I am junior partner in thhe firm Ivy, Ivy, and Dex, and was purported to be made partner within the next 5 years. After this past week tough, I’m not entirely sure.

So, after another night without sleep, and after thje red blood draining from my hand into a cereal bowl I put on the floor, I need to take a cold shower. A rerlaly cold one. Yesterday, I brought coffee into the shower with me to hopefully jump start my day with morer cafeeine. Today, I’ve purchased a few eneergy drinks. If that does not work, and after I sleep all weekend, proivided I still have a career I need to wake up, I might try cocaine. I searched online last night and it’s thhe only thing that seems consistently suggested to keep me awake. Granted, I have no idea how to find it, but, I’ll give it a try.