In the past I longed for the present In the present I long for the past In the future I’ll long for now But now I long for some other time Some time away from this Past, present, future The feeling haunts me throughout all times The ache The dread The knowledge I hold in my bones That I shall never be enough My missteps will come to bite me As the clock ticks get closer I’m on an accelerating train Faster and faster I can’t find the brakes Because there are no breaks It’s just this feeling This ache This dread This knowing that I’m powerless Helpless to stop time To change things To go back I’m stuck in motion And I’m about to crash

will I ever be enough? can I ever stop this feeling? i’m just a mortal a powerless, useless, helpless heap of cells it seems the only thing I’m sure of is my panic and all I want to do is sleep but the feeling plagues me as I lay awake desperate, I hope, beg, scream

please just let me go