In the past I longed for the present

In the present I long for the past

In the future I’ll long for now

But now I long for some other time

Some time away from this

Past, present, future

The feeling haunts me throughout all times

The ache

The dread

The knowledge I hold in my bones

That I shall never be enough

My missteps will come to bite me

As the clock ticks get closer

I’m on an accelerating train

Faster and faster

I can’t find the brakes

Because there are no breaks

It’s just this feeling

This ache

This dread

This knowing that I’m powerless

Helpless to stop time

To change things

To go back

I’m stuck in motion

And I’m about to crash

will I ever be enough?

can I ever stop this feeling?

i’m just a mortal

a powerless, useless, helpless heap of cells

it seems the only thing I’m sure of is my panic

and all I want to do is sleep

but the feeling plagues me as I lay awake

desperate, I hope, beg, scream

please

just let me go