It’s not my crime, I couldn’t have committed it,

I came from the unknown, never knew there was another person to help me grow myself, help get myself to confidence, to change me completely, bring me to who I am. I felt the sky falling the moment I was right in front of you, you made me wait for you, made me feel uncomfortable. The reason why I don’t know, not even now. Black eyes watching me behind my back, pretty little innocence, how you loved playing with my hair. You never said a thing about playing fair, the big show for you was so not as I thought, the feeling doesn’t matter as long as it’s right, now I really don’t know what was in your mind. Little devil is the one that never called me by my name, afraid to watch me winning, but not afraid of being selfish and so proud of others’ accomplishments,

cause according to the plan was all that I did, you were big and scary, but it really wasn’t that deep, right the moment I began to think I got so scared I wasn’t going to keep doing what I’m doing with all that anxiety. I don’t know how to take but J kinda think that it was all your fault, those hard moments of my life, those dark nights of the souls, they’ll haunt me for years, I wish I could just kill all memories related to thins. I hate you for all of this fear in my body, please stay away from me, you don’t want me to hurt you, go too far, now I wanna forget, I wanna reject, all so called helpers treating me like trash.

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I feel it like the start of something new, people love the language I speak, it feels so good, I never trusted that witch, I’m sure she would have hated it, doing only what she wanted, even the language I spoke.

I’ll forget it, but so you know that I’ll never forgive. I hate that witch with all my being, don’t waste your time asking me how was she like, what you will hear are way too beautiful lies.

It’s not a crime what I’m doing know, I’m being honest, you tell me I’m so much fun, I almost put all my being in this, but not all of me, I’ve got that feeling that someone’s chasing me.

Oh, so lovely, oh that’s so nice, love the story, it’s so tragic so far, why confuse it with the other one, just so you know, no I don’t speak of war. But it’s okay, you know I’m not getting mad, you know J love them both, they sound good in my years, I’ve got these melodies that I keep singing, so you can keep confusing , I don’t mind your unknowing.

Bam, like that! What a quick stop, I never ever doubt it ever since I got better, you have almost got me to stop at this point, but I will lead my anger to a voice you can’t hold.

Two murders, how could have I done something so bad, wait for third one, I don’t have it prepared yet…

Tysm for reading, have a wonderful beginning of summer, as wonderful as you !! 🫶🫶