_I prayed this was one of my smaller mistakes,_

_Leaving you behind. _

_You were my f.a.v.,_

_But not anymore._

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_I don’t just miss Fitz, _

_But I miss the version of me that loved him,_

_Just like he loves me,_

_And just like Keefe loves me. _

The words he had said over the years echoed in my head repeatedly.

_ I want it to be you. _

_ I’ll always be here when you need me. _

_ You know we’re stronger together. _

_ By the way, _he murmured, pressing Mr. Snuggles against his heart._ ‘I missed you too’_

_ I’m so tired of having to hide the fact that the only name I want to see on my list is… yours. _

_ Sometimes I wish you saw yourself a little clearer, so you’d actually believe me when I tell you this. You’re brilliant and talented and beautiful…_

_ you look really beautiful_

_ I really miss you Sophie. Not just as… whatever._

But it doesn’t matter anymore. Not when _his _face fills my mind every time think of Fitz, his ice blue eyes piercing me and making me feel guilty.