STORY STARTER
Write a story or scene that takes place in a desert.
Your plot can be about anything, but the main setting of your story should be in a desert setting.
forever • chapter nine
The quiet of the office was the sound of victory. I spent the next two hours completely lost in the data, the pivot tables, and color-coded outreach plans, and the only thing I had thought about was what I could fix next. Weston’s final command—"Stay in your chair."—was the only permission I needed to breathe. For the first time since landing in Arizona, I had a purpose that wasn't about performance. Just skill, for the rest of the ranch, I have a lack thereof.
I finally closed the laptop, stretching my tight shoulders. The tension from the morning's encounter with Weston, the memory of his body inches from mine, was replaced by the clean satisfaction of work well done.
I walked toward the kitchen, ready to make a cup of tea, and that satisfaction vanished instantly.
Clara was seated at the kitchen table with Sierra’s kids. One was clutching his arm, tears welling up, and the other was staring at his younger brother with wide-eyed concern. Clara wasn't lecturing them about being careful; she was simply and completely there.
"Oh, sweetie, come here." Clara’s voice was soft, stripped of its usual metallic edge. She didn't scold him for falling or demand he stop crying; she simply pulled Liam onto her lap, tucking his head under her chin. "It’s okay. That was a nasty one. Let's get you a wet cloth for that scrape, alright? You are so strong for a little 4 year old."
She smoothed his hair, rubbing his back with a gentle, rhythmic motion. It was unconditional, pure maternal affection, given without script or expectation. The genuine ease of that intimate, simple gesture—the protective arc of her arm, the gentle murmur of her voice—was a high-pitched, painful frequency in my ears.
"It wasn't a bad fall, Liam," Rio said, his voice small and serious. "You were just flying too high. Everyone has to fall eventually."
The simple, un-traumatized philosophy of a child hit me with the force of a blow. Everyone has to fall eventually. I felt my throat tighten, less from the external sympathy and more from the profound, simple truth being spoken by a child who was obviously loved. Was that what my life was? A lesson in falling? I gripped the counter, ready to snap at the boy for his naive wisdom, but the words died on my tongue.
The air in the kitchen vanished. I felt the familiar cold, prickling sensation start at the base of my neck. This is what it looks like. This is what I was never taught to expect, never allowed to accept. The comforting heat of the tea kettle in my hand suddenly felt too heavy.
“Hey, Clara!” I press out of my clenched teeth. “Who are these two?”
Clara glanced up, her brow furrowed slightly at the sharp, unnatural tone in my voice. She didn't release Liam, only tilting her head toward me.
“These are Sierra’s boys, Rio and Liam,” she said, her voice still impossibly soft. “Liam took a header off the tire swing. He’s fine. Why are you standing there like you saw a ghost?”
“Right. Sierra’s,” I confirmed, my voice coming out dry and brittle. I didn't want to know they were her children; I wanted them to be strangers I could ignore. “I didn’t realize they were here.”
Liam, looking up from Clara’s shoulder, offered a tear-streaked, but genuine, smile. Rio waved shyly. It was a simple, uncomplicated gesture of acceptance, and the sight of it—an emotion that cost me nothing—made my throat seize up. I felt the overwhelming, irrational urge to yank the child off Clara’s lap, or to run as far away from this dangerous, unsolicited warmth as possible.
I gripped the cold edge of the counter, fighting for control. I don't need your pity. I don't need your comfort. I don't need your sympathy. I was an efficient executive, not a broken child yearning for a hug. But a hug wouldn’t be so bad.
That thought was an ambush. It was a traitorous pinprick of pure, childish honesty that I immediately tried to suffocate. No. I slammed the door shut on that feeling. That kind of weakness is what cost me everything. It’s what allowed people to see me as soft, gullible, and ultimately, guilty. I wasn’t here to be comforted; I was here to be useful. I was here to prove that I was still sharp, not shattered.
The warmth in the room suddenly felt hostile. I straightened my spine against the counter, tasting the metallic tang of self-contempt. I should be at the office, working. I should be running projections, fixing broken systems, doing anything that didn't involve watching a stranger mend a scraped knee. I had the pivot tables, the cash flow—I had the numbers. Why was I paralyzed by a child's tear-streaked face? And why did his tearful eyes reflect a sense of warmth that I was never allowed to have?
I finally managed to unstick my hand from the cold counter edge. Stop looking at them. Do the task. The task was the tea. I pivoted awkwardly, grabbing the neglected tea kettle I had just set down. I needed the blessed numbness of logic and data, and right now, the simple ritual of boiling water was the closest I could get to regaining order.
I reached for a ceramic mug hanging on a hook, but my fingers were stiff, and the cup swung against its neighbor with a sharp, unexpected clatter.
Clara’s soft voice cut through the silence. “Oh, dear. Easy there, Haven. Are you shaking?”
I froze, the small cup trembling visibly in my grip. Exposure. The word hit me like a physical blow. The shame of being seen as anything less than controlled was unbearable. I quickly set the mug down, forcing my arms stiffly to my sides. “I’m fine, Clara. Just focused. I need to get back to the office now.”
“No, you don’t,” she contradicted, her voice still dangerously gentle. She eased Liam off her lap and stood, slowly approaching the counter. She didn't crowd me—she knew that would send me running—but she watched me with those sorrowful, assessing eyes. “You’ve been hunched over that computer for hours. You solved the ranch’s biggest financial crisis. That kind of work drains you. You need a minute, sweetie. You look pale.”
Pale. It was the language of weakness. It was the language of the child she assumed I was.
“I am perfectly fine,” I stated, my voice coming out thin and reedy, a far cry from the sharp, professional voice I’d used to silence Weston. I should be at the office, working. I should be running projections, fixing broken systems, doing anything that didn't involve watching a stranger that could have been more mend a scraped knee. I had the pivot tables, the cash flow—I had the numbers. If I’m not working, I’m not contributing. And if I’m not contributing, I am useless.
Clara winced. It was a silent, profound flinch of realization. “Haven, tell me the truth.” She lifted her hand, and I tensed, anticipating the inevitable, smothering gesture of comfort—a hand on my shoulder, a tuck of hair behind my ear. That was the line. I wouldn't allow her to cross that line. I wanted to yell something professional, something about Q4 financing, just to shatter the soft, dangerous air.
I took a sharp breath, ready to push past Clara and the kids, ready to march straight back to the barn office and work until my eyes blurred. I needed the blessed numbness of logic and data. I was just turning away, rejecting the whole scene with my body language, when the kitchen door flew open.
It didn't just swing—it slammed back against the wall with a startling thud. Every head in the kitchen snapped toward the noise, including mine. For a split second, I saw nothing but a blinding column of afternoon sun flooding the doorway, followed by a silhouette framed in dust and urgency. My heart instantly seized, not from fear, but from the jolt of pure shock that yanked me out of my emotional paralysis. Whoever it was, they were moving fast and they were not happy.
“Haven.” Weston ran in, carrying the laptop. “Take this and follow me to the back of the shed. Now.”
The order was a welcome surprise, giving me an escape from the kitchen that didn’t involve tears. As he practically threw the handheld computer in my hands, I shoved the tea kettle on the counter and walked out the back door.
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