FND:Functional Neurological Disorder is when you brain doesn’t send or revive the right signals to your body resulting in things like seizures, paralysis, fatigue(btw guys this isn’t like textbook definition but I just describe it like this).

I bend down to tie my shoelaces. Then I remember, my right arm is unable to move right now.

I will forever hate my brain for what it’s robbed me of. A normal life. The capability to do normal things. Like tying shoelaces.

I miss the old me. The old me that could tie shoelaces. I guess I ought to put her to rest in a coffin now.

I remember that there was a time where I would be able to tell what is normal for my body and what is not. Now, the normal and the unusual are indistinguishable. I am unable to tell if it’s a new symptom or if there is actually something wrong with me. Something that can be treated. Because my FND isn’t.

My arm moves again.

I bend down.

I tie my shoelaces.