From the very first time I knew this was going to come to an end. I knew the butterflies were going to turn into growing pains and knots yet I liked the challenge. I knew things were going to come to an end when you didn’t really care to ask about my day or when you would just ignore my rants about my day. I knew things were going to come to an end when you didn’t even care to pitch in on what you wanted me to cook for you. The lack of interest and the lack of wanting to make me happy the way I went overboard and bent over backwards. When you yelled at me in front of everyone in the block you don’t want to be with me or when you described how much I disgusted you. I knew it was over when I started begging for you to be patient and understanding. I knew it was over when you asked me to give you respect when you couldn’t do the same. I knew it was over when you said it was my fault for looking. I knew it was over when every single dream , goal , job or idea I brought up you tore down all the way to hell. I knew it was over when I didn’t want to look for cute dinner ideas or cute dessert set ups. I knew it was over when my creativeness for you died. I knew it was over when I spent the whole day for you to come home just so you could disappear again till 3am. I knew it was over when I realized that when I’m out with friends all I could think about was going back home to you. & all you could think about was your next bird. I knew it was over since the moment that it was hard for you to be open about the small details in your day. I know it’s over cause you always scream now and i start to flinch. I know it’s over as I’m sitting in this dark room typing a fuckin story to randos online while your in the living room probably texting the next one. I wish that my fuckin heart knew it was over so I could stop crying over a dumbass narcissistic gaslight lying manipulative manchild. (Twins!)I wish it was over so i can be happy again and not have your voice in the back of my head judging me all the time. I wish I could just zap you out of my head. I wish it had all ended before you made me step out of character. Heres to hoping that the cycle you put me through ends with your bloodline.