Trying to survive my own head

Constantly hating what I see in the mirror,

Judging the face I was born with,

Disappointed by my best,

But too scared to actually give my all.

Trying to survive my own head

The way I lose my mind when you don’t respond,

The way I look at you, wishing it could be us,

The way I dream of you every night,

The way I can’t stop thinking ’bout you.

Trying to survive my own head

In which I still see the pictures of our once happy family,

Wishing it still could be us,

Running happily through the house,

Hating the fact that it will never happen again,

That it’s over.

Scared of getting haunted by our past,

Ruining my own future.

Trying to survive my own head

That can’t stop loving so deeply,

That won’t shut up for a few seconds,

That will never leave me joyful,

That won’t stop finding mistakes.

Trying to survive my own head

In which my voice sounds strange,

In which nothing makes sense anymore,

In which my love gets lost,

In which I hate my own image.

Trying to survive

But the flames are too strong,

The water too deep,

The hate too powerful,

My heart too weak