You know that feelig, that feeling of a warmth building in your chest, or the flutter and twist that occurs im your stomach and refuses to leave. The smiles, the many, many smiles, and easy laughter that comes from your heart. You mean every single one, you're unable to force something as extraordinary as this. You linger on the feeling as it dicipates, wondering where it went wrong, and where it may have went. It's gone, you say, you defide it's gone because maybe you do have control in this sense. And as soon as you create this mindset.. you see them again. Burning. Crushing. Craving. There must be a word for this..